Interview with Sister Roberts and Sister Cluff, 1 Interview with Sister Roberts and Sister Cluff

Missionaries of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints
Ann Arbor, Michigan, January 12, 2001


        I was in Washington, D. C. for a day, with the afternoon to kill, and I asked myself: "What have I always wanted to do in Washington?"  The answer came to me immediately: "Visit the Mormon temple."  Every time I had come to Washington, I had seen its spires from the Beltway, but had never had the opportunity to investigate more closely.  Years ago, a friend had given me a booklet on the Mormon temples, with beautiful color illustrations of some of the most historic and grandiose.  The ambition, wealth, and creativity that had been poured into these buildings had impressed me, and I had been even more struck by the individuality of their design and the sumptuousness of their interiors.  
       I drove up Connecticut Avenue until I crossed the highway, and at the next right turn, a sign indicating the road to the temple was posted.  The road meandered through a park, the temple came into view, and the road then turned sharply left up a steep hill.  I parked my car in front of the Visitor's Center, and after finding the temple locked, decided to visit the Center.  As I entered, a tall, elderly man with a gentle and courteous manner greeted me.  
         "My name is Elder Bigler," he introduced himself.  
         "Please excuse my appearance," I apologized, after giving him my name.  I was unshaven and dressed for the road, in blue jeans and a leather jacket.
       Would you like to sit down and talk?" he asked me, apparently unconcerned with my scruffiness.
           "Thank you, I would," I replied.
       He conducted me to a comfortable sitting room and closed the door, giving us complete privacy.  I immediately regretted that I had left my tape recorder in the car.  I told him about my admiration for the Mormon temples.  "All your temples are so unique," I enthused.  "Most Christian churches are built more or less on the same model."
       "Well, we're the only Christian church that builds temples," he replied.
       "What the difference between a church and a temple?" I inquired further.
         "Temples are used for sacred ordinances of an eternal nature.  For instance, we believe that marriage is eternal.  When a marriage takes place in a temple, we say that you are sealed in time and in all eternity."
        Interview with Sister Roberts and Sister Cluff, 2I was taken aback by how quickly we had gotten into such a complex subject.  The idea of eternal marriage was totally new to me.  I didn't want to jump into the topic too quickly, so I steered around it.  "And this is not true of a marriage that takes place in a church?" I asked.
       "Not in our opinion.  In a church ceremony, they say: "'Til death do you part."  In such a case, the marriage is only one of convenience, in this lifetime.  It's not a marriage for eternity.  If everything we do is directed toward this life, then we haven't much faith in the life hereafter."
         I thought about this, and it made sense.  I could see that from the Mormon point of view, the normal Christian approach to marriage would seem debased, materialistic, and even sacrilegious.  "And you believe that you have the power, within these temples, to seal a marriage for all eternity?" I asked.
         "Yes," he replied.  "We believe that this power, or authority, was given to Joseph Smith, and is carried by the prophets who are his successors."
         "Do you believe that there was this power in the early Christian church, as well?" I wanted to know.
         "Yes, of course," he replied.  "But we believe that this was taken away quite early in the history of the Church, with the passing of the apostles.  After that, God's plan was distorted, and God withdrew His authority.  With Joseph Smith, this authority was restored again."
         "So you believe that there was an apostasy?"
         "Absolutely," he replied.  "The very fact that there are so many forms of Christianity is evidence that there was an apostasy.  We believe that God's plan is for man to return to Him.  We believe that though Christ's intervention, we will regain our body throughout eternity."
       "So you believe than in the next world, we will have a body similar to the one we now have?"
         "Yes.  We believe that the afterlife is a world of materiality, but glorified materiality."
         "You believe that in the next life, we would be able to sit down and have a conversation, just as we are doing now."
         "Yes."
         This struck me as radically different from most forms of Christianity.  "How does this compare with the conception that other Christian groups have of the afterlife?" I wanted to know.
       "It varies, because there are so many Christian churches.  But most Christians have much vaguer notions of the afterlife.  They believe that we are reunited with God, but they don't say much more than that."
       I was very intrigued by what Elder Bigler was telling me, and cursed my lack of a tape recorder.  Forced to scribble down his words in a haphazard manner, I felt like apologizing again.  "I'd like to follow up on this conversation when I get back home," I told him.
       "If you write down your phone number, I could have someone from our church call you when you get where you're going," he offered.
       "That's very kind of you," I replied.  After giving him the information, I got up, shook his hand again, and departed with many questions in my mind.
       It was only a few days later, after I had gotten back home, that I got a call from a very young woman who introduced herself as Sister Roberts.  She offered to meet with me and answer any more questions I might have.  It took a couple more telephone exchanges with Sister Roberts and her companion, an equally young woman named Sister Cluff, before we succeeded in setting up an early evening appointment at a community center connected with the Church.  When I arrived, Sister Roberts first greeted me.  She was a college-age girl with a shy grin, dark hair pulled back tight over her head, and sparkling eyes.  Sister Cluff was the same age, but a little more authoritative in her manner, with a round, attractive face, and auburn hair that spilled down to her shoulders.  We sat down in a large, private room, and this time I pulled out my little tape recorder, telling them how much I had missed it during the previous interview.
       "Do you mind if we start out with a prayer?" Sister Cluff asked.
        Interview with Sister Roberts and Sister Cluff, 3"Not at all," I replied.  I closed my eyes, as a normally do in contemplation, while Sister Cluff said some words of appreciation in a soft voice.  As I did so, I felt the tingle up my spine and on my shoulders that signified to me the loving touch of Spirit, a presence that I was used to feeling whenever my attention was receptive to it.
       "Did you feel it, too?" I asked the two girls, once the prayer was over.
       "Uh, huh," Sister Cluff nodded her head energetically in the affirmative.    
       "That interests me very much," I told them.  "We're not of the same faith," but we are both feeling the presence of Spirit in each other's company.  Did it feel the same to you as it did to me?"
       "Probably," she replied.  "Those are feelings of the Holy Ghost.  We feel peace, joy, happiness, calm."
       "You feel something entering your heart?"
       "Yes.  A lot of people feel a touch of emotion.  It's different for everyone, I think.  It's our Heavenly Father letting us know that He is there, and He is hearing our prayers, and answering our prayers.  It's a great way to bring Spirit into any situation."
       I fumbled around with my notes, not sure where to go from this point.  I filled them in on my talk with Elder Bigler in Washington, and came back to the subject of what he called ordinances that are sealed for eternity.  I asked Sister Cluff what that meant, in her opinion.
       "Personally, I think it makes sense," she replied.  "We come down here, and our Heavenly Father knows that we're going to come down here, and we're going to love our families.  People would give their lives for their children.  And I think I would give up my life for my parents.  I love them very dearly.  They mean very much to me.  And to have that just end at death doesn't seem very merciful.  To me, it makes sense that our Heavenly Father would allow our very sacred and wonderful relationships last forever, and not just while we're here."  
       "What about someone who has been married, but is not a Mormon, and who has not had his or her marriage sealed for eternity?  What happens to someone like that in the afterlife?" I asked.
       "That's a very good question," Sister Roberts replied.  "I think that, in the end, it will all work out for everyone.  Among the things we also do in the temples are baptisms for the dead."
       "And these would be for people in your family who had already passed over?"
       "Well, that's where genealogy comes in," Sister Roberts explained.  "People can look up their family members.  That's where the names come from.  And people from the church then do these ordinances for them."
         "We basically do it in their names," Sister Cluff chimed in.  "They have the opportunity to accept the baptism or not accept it.  And that's why there's a lot of emphasis in our church on doing temple work, so that everybody has that opportunity."
       "I'm still trying to imagine what happens to people that don't have that opportunity in this lifetime," I said.  "If they were never married, for instance, is their afterlife spent in seeking for a partner that they didn't have in this life?"
       "We also believe that after we die, we go to the Spirit world and continue to learn about the plan of our Heavenly Father," Sister Roberts explained.  "That's where there are other missionaries, people like us, who teach people the Gospel."
       "So you believe that a person who had his or her marriage sealed for eternity in this life would have the same marriage partner in the next, but someone did not have that opportunity in this life would still be working on that in the next life.  And the next life is one in which we're still working to understand God's plan, just as were doing in this life.  Is that correct?"
       "Yes," Sister Roberts agreed.
       "To me, spirituality has a lot to do with a concern with the afterlife," I continued.  "Of course, it also has a lot to do with how you live your life here and now, but I think that if you have some idea or expectation of the afterlife, that it will change how you deal with the here and now.  If, after we pass from this life, we go to a world in which we're still working to learn God's plan, then there must be prophets and teachers that are helping to give people God's word and an understanding of God's plan in that world, as well."
       "I think our spirits will be the same, and therefore the prophets and teachers we have had on earth will also be the same," Sister Roberts declared.  "When we die, our bodies go to the grave, and our spirits go to the Spirit world.  So we're the same person, the same spirit, and whatever we learn here, we'll bring with us."
        Interview with Sister Roberts and Sister Cluff, 4"The knowledge that we've gained in this life, that we've taken the time to learn for ourselves, we'll be able to take with us in the next," Sister Cluff supported her.
       "And if the next life is still a place of learning, then there have to be teachers in that life, as well," I offered.
       "Yes.  I think so," they both agreed.
       "We believe that we have lived before we were born," Sister Roberts said.  "That was in the pre-mortal life.  We don't remember anything about it, because if we did, we would have no reason to be here."
       "And do you believe that where we lived before we were born is the place that we're going to live after we pass on, or is it a different place?" I inquired.  "In other words, is salvation a matter of returning to where we came from?"
       "It's a returning back to the presence of our Father in Heaven," Sister Cluff replied.  So I would imagine that in some ways it's the same."
       "When you say that we've lived before," I persisted in my questioning, "is the life that we had before conceived of as a life of having been a life of greater wisdom and greater freedom than we have now, or lesser wisdom and lesser freedom than we have now?"
       Sister Roberts and Sister Cluff were smiling and shaking their heads and my barrage of questions.  "That's a good question," they replied, laughing simultaneously.  
       "To be honest, I don't think I've ever been asked that," Sister Cluff admitted.
       "I'm a strange one," I started to apologize.  "It comes from living in a college town.  But I'm not expecting that you're going to have all the answers."  I appreciated their directness and honesty.  The fact that they admitted they didn't know the answers to all my questions was a very positive quality, in my view.  They didn't try to pretend to be anyone other than who they were.
       "Elder Bigler told me to ask about the Plan of Salvation," I said, as I picked up the thread of my thoughts.
       "The main thing about the Plan of Salvation," Sister Roberts responded, "is that there are so many things that we can do to attain salvation.  We have our faith in Jesus Christ, and that's the most important thing.  But we can also return to our Father in Heaven by repenting for anything that we have done wrong.  That's the neat thing about the plan of our Heavenly Father, that he has made a way for us to return to Him."
       "What do you think is the most crucial determinant for achieving salvation?" I asked.       
         "Definitely our Savior Jesus Christ," they both replied.  "We have to accept Him as our savior.  Without Him there would be no way to repent," Sister Cluff added.
       "At the very beginning of our conversation, we were talking about feeling the presence of Spirit, or the Holy Ghost.  How does that experience compare to your relationship with Jesus?" I wanted to know.
       "One of the missions of the Holy Ghost," Sister Cluff replied, "is to testify to the mission of Jesus Christ.  So I think they work hand in hand."
       "When we did the prayer together, and felt the presence of Spirit, is that closeness to Spirit, for you, the evidence of your relationship with Jesus Christ?"
       "Yes, they answered.
       I wanted to ask them a few more personal questions.  "I assume you're both from Mormon backgrounds.  Is that right?" I queried.
       "Yes," Sister Cluff replied.  "I know that a lot of people think that we've been brainwashed, because we've been raised in it."
       "Most everybody is raised in some religion," I commented.  "And by and large, most people stick with the religion in which they've been raised.  It's not always the case.  Some people do change religions.  But a high percentage of people stay in their own religion."
        Interview with Sister Roberts and Sister Cluff, 5"I think each person has to have their own conversion story, in way," Sister Cluff commented.  "There comes a time in your life when you can no longer depend on what your parents have always said or what you've been taught in church."
       "So even for someone who has grown up in the religion, at some point in life everyone has to be converted."
       "Exactly.  Everyone's a convert."
       "Can you tell me about your own conversion?"
       "It came as a gradual process, I think," Sister Roberts volunteered.  "We have what we call a testimony.  That's where people testify to how they're feeling and what they believe in.  And just from doing that continually, you learn so much more from other people and from doing it yourself.  Your knowledge grows even stronger and your testimony grows as you tell each other how you feel.  And my testimony grew very gradually.  I had to learn each step and know for myself what was true and what was not."
       I was very impressed with their responses.  "Everything that you've said seems very reasonable to me," I told them.  But even if there were something you said that didn't seem reasonable, it wouldn't matter to me, because I feel that Presence, regardless."
       "What do you think that means?" Sister Cluff asked me.  "That's a question I have for you."
       "I think it means that Spirit is much greater than any of us, and greater than any particular religion.  It is with us at any moment, wherever we are, and regardless of who we encounter."
       I asked if we could do another prayer together, to wind up the interview.  This time, Sister Roberts led the prayer.  As she was speaking, I felt Spirit sweeping over me with a gentle power that brought tears to my eyes.  I emerged from the interlude smiling, dabbing the corners or my eyes with my knuckles, slightly embarrassed about my display of emotion.  I thanked them for the interview, bid them good evening, and walked out into the winter evening feeling refreshed, invigorated, and grateful for having made their acquaintance.
 
Date Submitted:
7/17/01
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